Who Cares.

Ever since I've started back up in the rush of school, my moods have been neutral.
I come to school feeling like crap thanks to this stupid weird unknown sickness thing, I do stuff, eat, etc., I then get home, do homework, maybe eat dinner, go on OZ and skype, then get rushed off of it cause of my fucking computer.
It's just a schedule I seem to have fallen into.
I don't really have time to react. I just get a pattern in my head, I need to do this, then this and this, then I can do this.
Weekends pretty much suck too.
It doesn't matter what computer I go on for skype and OZ. It turns off at 11pm sharp.
Who the hell goes to bed at 11 on a weekend anyway.
That is like the only time I actually get either super mad or super depressed, depends on what happened that day.
I just want to throw the computer at the wall.
Sure, I'm lucky I get to go at all, blah blah blah.
It doesn't stop me from crying my eyes out.
I am happy I am now a mod though.
I finally feel like I can actually do something for once. It's hard to find something to do but it's always there and I get at least one thing done every day.
Oh yeah, I stayed home from school again today.
Ended up throwing up in the car on the way to school this morning, that was wonderful.
Thank god mom was driving me and I wasn't with the people I usually carpool with.
My stomach still hurts like hell though, It's been like this the whole day.
Whatever.
I don't really care anymore.
I'm going back to the doctor straight after school tomorrow for the 3rd time in the past 2 weeks I think.
Each time I go they don't find anything, then something else happens, and I go back.
Maybe they'll actually find out whats wrong with me tomorrow.
I don't really like throwing up in the morning and not being able to eat very much at all.
Well my math teacher has probably emailed me my math quiz for today by now, I guess I'll go do that.
Bye.
~Kelly