Seriously?

He showed up today with his new girlfriend.
Apparently he met her at some party. She's from the "other" homeschooling group. None of us really have ever met the kids in that group. I mean I know a couple. But it's not like we're best of friends.
Jocy barely knows her. I mean she's his sister.
I remember what he said to me "Let's wait until you get comfortable in your new school." I said ok. All he said is that he wanted to wait... I agreed.
And he shows up to the bowling ally with HER.
Smooth move Alec. Good job.
I had the sudden urge to walk up to this Susan chick and tell her all the stories I know.
I guess that's what happens when you date a friend you grew up with right?
Not to mention your best friends brother....
But whatever.
APPARENTLY I sold girl scout cookies with Susan once. She was the best friend of this girl we weren't too fond of...
Katrina was.... Interesting.
But whatever. I don't care.
Let her date him. He doesn't even know what he's doing at all.
And that makes me laugh~
Ah I'll go back to waiting.
Boys are icky.
Except Sebby and all the other awesome people I know who aren't douches ;-; <3

Happy Birthday Sebby.

Dear Sebby,

I don't think you really know how much I love you. I always tell you I know, but since it's your birthday and everything I want to put it all in a nice letter/blog thing.
You. Are. Amazing.
I don't care how many times you tell me you aren't.
But I've known you for... Almost a year now? Wow.... It seems longer. Much longer than that.
We all have our moments. I think you're defiantly the person I cry with the most. And every time you're there for me.
Every time.
I try to be there for you and do the same thing you do for me as much as I can.... I see that 80% of the time I fail. But I seriously do try. I just think you're much better at that than I am.
I know I'm a worry wart. I'm always worrying about you. Especially lately. A lot. But I know you know that. I just hope you know it's because I truly do care about you.
I can't wait until summer. You don't know how many times a day I think about how it will be the first time I see you in Colorado. I swear to god I might just faint. But before that I am just going to run up to you and give you a ULTRAHUGEMEGA hug. I'm afraid I'll crush you. But I'll be very aware of that while I'm hugging you. Don't worry~
We're going to go get ice cream. And then we'll go to the bookstore and read TONS of yaoi. And we'll just be running around Colorado like we don't have a care in the world.
You don't know how happy that makes me to just think about it.
I hope it does for you too or else I'll feel super stupid.
I wanna see Etta and Josh too. After talking Etta it just makes me want to meet her so much more. So much I think I'm going to explode!
*boom*
But yeah anyways.
Sebby I love you. I love you SOFREAKINGMUCH.
I don't think I've ever loved anyone this much! Almost as much as my sock monkey Mackie.
But seriously. Watch out. For this summer you're going to be glomped by this yaoi-loving-worry-wart-weird girl who loves you. I hope you'll be able to handle it. I'm not holding back.
I hope your birthday is everything you wished for! If not I'm going to smack a potato.
ILOVEYOUSEBBY AUHGHWEBJBFGW

Love,
Kelly

Fail cupcake A and fail cupcake D (the icing was weird and watery). I cut myself on the eggshells by accident.... and my hands are still sticky from all the fail icing ;-; ... lol Happy Birthday?

Fear.

My stomach hurts again.
Ugh been really busy lately. My friends were like "Hey how about we go shopping the day before the Christmas party so we can buy each other out presents then!"
Why did I say yes.
It was SO FUCKING BUSY. The lines were soooo long. Traffic was a bitch. ahhshdfefe
Not fun.
I didn't say much when we went shopping. I was lost in my own thoughts.
Then yesterday was the party.
I got sock monkey socks. Thank you Lanie!
I also got the movie Juno from Julia. Maybe I can finally watch it now.
Last night I had to leave the party early. I told everyone I didn't feel good and was tired.
That was a lie but I finally got to leave.
I DO feel sick. I haven't eaten much lately.
But it's not just a cold.
It's worry...?
Can you really get sick from worry? I think so.
I'm scaring my parents a little... Wanting to be left alone more than usual.
I'm worse than the moody teenager I always am. Much worse.
Hey I'm not cutting myself.
Isn't that good enough?
I lied in bed until 3am last night. My eyes were wide eyed. I wouldn't fall asleep.
I was so scared.

I like the smell of this apple cider candle. Spark spark.

My eyes hurt. I'm tired. I don't feel good at all. I STILL am worrying.
If I tell you okay I'm lying. Just so you know.
But mom and dad are on their way home with Bobby from the airport now.
It's my moms cousin from like... Florida or something... I don't remember.
Bobby is pretty cool though.
He's super nice.
Oh and he writes gay porn for a living! I think that's pretty cool personally.
But that's just me.
Not to mention he had a stroke once. So his right hand doesn't work at all.
He loves to read and always reads his Kindle by the fire.
But to write his books he has that thing that you speak into it and it puts down the word.
I just LOVE to imagine how writing his books would be like.
But no Bobby's awesome. He's pretty low key. He's going to stay with us until Christmas this year too.
I'm going to go try to do work now... Got something to proofread finally. I hope I don't mess up.
Ow my eyes hurt from crying... lol.
Bye.

Bleh.

I'm sick.

This is the first time I've cried in a while. lol