She isn't my friend anymore.
I don't know if she ever was.
I thought she was my friend.
But now I know that she really isn't.
Well it was nice knowing you.
Actually.... Not really.
Well not anymore.
So ha.
See what I care.
I don't.
Have a nice life.

I deleted her number.

Kelly Writing a Blog? No Way.

People say it's been a long time since I said anything. Well just to let anyone that cares know, I do actually blog. You just never see it. Lol.
Too depressing, certain people I don't want seeing them.
I mean I'm not saying I talk shit about all my friends behind their backs. I would never do that! It's just everyone gets annoyed at one point in time right? Besides. I'm just not comfortable showing some of my blogs anyway.
Today sucked. Math was hard and annoying. I was soooo tired the whole day and I have no idea why because I actually got a good nights sleep kind of. Better than usual.
I feel like shit.
I haven't been doing my mod work which worries the crap out of me. Even though I KNOW finally for a fact I'll get some of it done during my 5 day Thanksgiving break, as long as Oz doesn't die again like it did last weekend.
Between all this homework, dealing with all these depressed friends, TRYING to make them happy, and failing. I'm sick.
Stop saying how "Oh I'm never using my computer ever again.
I mean seriously. Don't just give up like this. Take a break if you have to. See where you stand after that. So many people are just leaving without even saying that much. More people are just fading slowly away.
It makes me sick.
Just say a reason you don't want to talk to these people.
I don't care I know there is that big reality out there waiting for you and you want to stop hiding behind a computer screen all the time.
Just say that then.
Sure I'll be super upset.
I already have my "conditions" for leaving.
I know when I have to go.
I will change totally I know, and I don't want to.
Because I hate change. I hate it so much.
But whatever.

Want to know another thing that I hate?
My friends being depressed for no reason.
"Nobody talks to me"
"Everyone hates me"
"I'm useless"
"I give up."
Shut up.
Just shut up.
I'm sick of hearing that.
It's impossible for EVERYONE to hate you.
Impossible.
Would there be people trying to cheer you up and talk to you if you were hated by everyone? I think not.
So just stop it and talk to us, like it used to be.
Yes, Oz has changed, times have changed.
One of the reasons because of that is because so many people left.
But has the concept ever crossed your mind that if you tried, just a little.
If everyone would stop being sad depressed bastards then maybe things could be happy like they used to be.
I'm sick of being sick.
I'm sick of worrying my ass off about some people the whole day.
You know why I write this in the first place?
Because half of it is a rant and then the other half is because I care.
I need to get this off my chest.
Now.
So instead of sitting there being all emo and everything just try to do something that will get us all together again.
This is a group effort.
It's hard for one person to do it.
Trust me. I've tried.
So get off your asses and do something about this.
Until everyone leaves.
This isn't a good reason for people to leave, we change this and who knows, maybe people would even come back.
Ever thought about that?
I don't think so.
I'm going to bed.
At 6:30pm.
Night.
(Typos fixed) >.>

I hate this so much.