I want my brain to be organized.

I want to write, right? Yeah.
I get inspired and I have an idea in my head that I like. I try to write it but the right words don't come out. Yeah I know it takes practice to get better. Which I do. It's just I wish my brain wasn't so disorganized. I always have a billion different things swimming through my head. So then eventually I lose the want to write. I lose the 'amazing' idea I had. And just like that, it's gone.
People tell me I'm really creative. I just wish I could be creative when I want to be. Oh well. I'll get there someday I'm sure.